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2003-05-12 - 7:29 p.m. Listening To: Give It Up / Home Grown I want to move so bad. But I can't. Don't ask me why, b.c. I don't know. Maybe it's my job? I have an obligation to my job. I am even afraid to transfer. I need to better myself. Moving & all of that is such a hassle. I don't know if I could handle that right now. Missing Josh alot. He never called back from Thursday...when he called & I didn't hear my phone. All of these thoughts are getting in my head. Stupid thoughts. I don't even want to tell you b.c. I know I will sound like a dumbass. Maybe it's just the diet pills making me loopy. You know what a wierd, but common thing is? Internet dating. I say weird b.c. there is such a stigma attached to it. I wouldn't date a guy I met in a bar, I know that much. But I don't really know if I would date a guy I met online, either. Guys lie. Alot. When I talk to people online, I am honest. Always. I never try to make myself sound better than I really am. I did have a semi-relationship w/ someone for a few months. Nothing that great. He ended up being fruity as hell, & when it "ended", I felt like I had lost a friend rather than a potential boyfriend. This is the same person who always has a profile up on some internet dating site & would send me text messages about how horny he was & would describe it in perfect detail to me. Creepy. Now I admit, I have met a few people from the computer. One of my best friends from SLU I met on AOL, but of course she lived in a dorm 3 blocks from my apartment so it wasn't like I went 1000 miles to meet some stranger. Every person I have met from online (all 3) have become really special to me in thier own way. No wait, 4. Kris from Lafayette. He makes 4. But that was almost like just seeing him again, not for the first time. We talked for over a year then met up @ show. Cool kid, too. We don't see each other enough. Okay I don't know why I wrote all of that. Stupid fucking entry. Something better will be up tomorrow.
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