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2003-10-17 - 9:39 a.m. Yesturday was weird. I think it was the diet pills or something. All I know is I missed Josh w/ a passion. When he left night before last, I was lonely. I slept lonely. I woke up lonely. I wasnted to leave work all day to go see him. I went to dinner w/ Isaac & Jennifer. I was missing him then, too. we drank & I got tipsy & called his house & couldn't hear his sister so I kept saying "WHAT? HE IS DOING WHAT??!!!" He was in the bathroom. Jennifer & I were planning on going to a bar out of town--10 miles from Josh--& I wanted to go b.c. all I could think about was making out & telling him exactly how I feel about him. However, the beer wore off & I was left tired & depressed, so I didn't go. I stayed home & talked on the phone to him instead. I thought if you were in love you were happy & smiling all of the time? Me? I'm missing him too much so it makes me aggrevated & on edge. He is spending the night tonight & I am cooking him crawfish cassarole. I'm so domestic. My mom got arrested again last night for being all over the road. Yeah that was her charge-being all over the road. Reckless driving maybe? Anyway-she called about 1 am wanting someone to come get her from wherever she was on the side of the road. Eff that. She drives a 2004 Benz & has wrecked it 2 times in the past month. Both times her fault. She is such a loser. Oh I hate her. Sometimes I wish bad things for her, just so we won't get late night phone calls. I have been watching alot of Crank Yankers lately. In fact, I have been doing alot of things lately. This whole 'having a life' thing isn't so bad. I just wish I could go back 4 years & be 19 again. I will be 24 this year. How old. How depressing.
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